About Good Mom In Tough Times

Hello everyone,  I am a 30 yr old single mom of two boys aged 3 and 11.  My life has been filled with so many traumatic times that I'm not sure where to begin....I was involved in a car accident in 1995 when I was 17 that caused me to be in a coma for two full weeks.  From that, I am blind in one eye, have grand-mal seizures, and I also needed to have multiple procedures to fix the left side of my face.  My cheek was shattered and I broke 12 different parts of my skull.  My short-term and long-term memory is severly damaged and I find it very hard to concentrate and thats just the brief portion of the problems that I have from that accident. Life has been such a struggle for me!! I wasn't able to finish high school but I did get my GED. I also applied for SSI but was denied 3 times. I always tried to stay positive and to not give up but its getting the best of me now. I have not held a job longer than 6 months because of my health. My family wrote me off after the car accident, I think because of the change in my appearance so I have no type of support. I did manage to have two beautiful, loving boys but their dad disappeared during pregnancy. I don't know how to go on, I cannot manage my bills and taking care of two rapidly growing boys has proven itself to be a challenge. I don't know what else to do and I don't know who to turn to. I just recently was fired from yet another job because of their lack of understanding to my health issues despite the fact that I was a hard-working employee, ya know, the one who comes in early and stays late to get the job done. I tried organizations in my area but I don't seem to qualify for anything!!! The only thing that keeps me sane is the love that my children have for me. Little do they know (and they never will) that I don't know if we are gonna be on the street tomorrow or how I'm gonna clothe them or that there are many nights that I go to bed hungry for the sake of feeding them first.  I've always had the idea of opening my own restaurant, nothing big and fancy, just something that I could get started with.  I am a great cook and I know that I wouldn't have any problems making money with that career choice. And I will be able to take care of my health better being my own boss.  I just don't know how to get started. My credit sucks and there is no one in my life that I can go to to ask for help with helping me finance it.  Are there any grants out there for low-income people to start a business?? Would I absolutely need good credit to start one??  Am I even being realistic about the whole thing?? Should I just go find a corner, tuck my head in and give up?? My whole life has been hard, when is it ever gonna ease up??  I know that I'm just ranting right now but thats how my mind feels, like its all over the place!! Any advice, referrals or cash assistance will be very helpful, I thank you in advance....Thanks everyone for reading!!